End of the year 2016

Hello Everyone,
I am finally giving you an update. If anyone still reads my blog you have probably been wondering the details of my newest grand-daughter's birth. It is a hard thing I have to tell you. Our little Aleigha Rae was born still born on June 16th, 2016. My heart breaks not only for my daughter and son-in-law but also for us as well. We had so many things we wanted to share. So many hugs and love to pour into our little blessing and all we have instead is heartbreak. I know that God does things we don't understand and that this life comes with no guarantees except that we will eventually all die, just some of us go faster than we are ready to let go and I can't begin to tell you how much it hurt us all.

This year has been a rough patch on a slippery slope and I will hopefully see a better one, if God is willing, for 2017. I have to admit this post is not going to be cheerful. I have not only lost my grand-daughter and my health, I have lost my sense of purpose. I am holding onto the hem of my Christ's garment because I struggle letting go of the struggles this year has presented to me. I am still having issues with my health that I can't get a handle on and I wish I could just go back to last year when I was energetic, walking closely with Christ and looking forward to what the future had in store. This sadness scares me. It is not like me to not work my way through it. I am not angry at God, I can't be mad at Him and still want Him to walk with me through this while I lean on Him and  I choose to lean on Him.

Please pray for us, I'm not giving up. I just need time to regroup, and to kick Satan off my back where he knocked me into the dirt. I will try to find my place again and hopefully my next post will be back to a more cheerful note.

Take care and God bless.